Two heads are not always better than one

As most of you know, I am not pursuing a conventional treatment plan to deal with the breast cancer.  I believe chemotherapy and radiation to be the most counter-intuitive “treatments” imaginable.  That being said, I have promised those who worry about me that I will keep my ears open and at least hear what both sides have to say.

One might say that having access to more than one strategy would be beneficial.  After all, both naturopathy and western medicine study cancer and advocate for treatments they tote to be helpful.  When neither side offers a guaranteed cure though, what one is actually left with is a whole lot of questions.

Two heads are not always better than one.

I knew going into this journey, being open to both sides would be harder than going completely natural, and definitely more challenging than going the popular, western route, so I shouldn’t be surprised.  What surprises me the most in this contrast of two methodologies is the way I feel in the midst of each.

When I first got diagnosed, I was very accepting and positive.  I was thinking with my naturalistic brain and feeling with my heart, and I was not scared.  As soon I saw the surgeon, that positivity and courage was zapped.  I don’t blame him.  It’s not his fault.  It goes way deeper than that.  As soon as I walk into the medical offices, the lab, or the hospital, the same thing happens.  In fact, it stirs in me before I even get there.  I feel a little bit nauseous, totally unsure of myself, and very unsafe.  I go through the motions because like I said, I’ve committed to others that I will hear both sides.

In between these medical appointments, I go to my naturopath, Dr. Matt Pyatt, twice a week for IV vitamin C treatments and mistletoe therapy (no that doesn’t mean a make-out session!)  In these in-between times, I feel great.  I feel empowered and stress-free.  I feel healthy and happy.  I am welcomed at the office on a first name basis, all of my questions get answered promptly, and most importantly, I am treated like an individual, not just another patient.  The camaraderie that exists in the IV room among patients is amazing and inspiring.


It was this realization today that got me thinking…  being in both worlds is not really working for me.  

I believe that stress is a huge player in the cancer game and am doing my best to rid it from my life while I build myself back up and heal.  Through things like researching, meditating, and following my intuition, I am living life presently and positively.  I feel good, like its working, as long as I don’t have any medical appointments.  I’m not sure what exactly this means for me but the realization and awareness of something that isn’t working is always the first step.

Have you ever been pulled in two directions and not known which way to go?  Did you follow your intuition?



Ignorance is not bliss

When I was actively working on Bundles of Energy and diligently spreading the word of whole food and amazing health, I regularly came across the “ignorance is bliss” attitude.  You know the type.  In fact, I imagine you have probably played that card yourself at least once or twice… come on admit it!

My own Facebook page is littered with messages about well being, yet all of last year, I ignored them.  I knew better for sure… WAY better!  I let the busyness and stress of life get in the way of my own well being.

And here we are.

A good friend of mine told me not to take on guilt about anything as Cancer can happen to anyone at anytime and it’s not my fault.  I get and appreciate where she is coming from and I also know I contributed to where I am at right now.

Last year I had the schedule of probably three people on my plate.  I went from being a stay at home mom for seven years to working full time in a high stress job, taking on my Masters degree in Counselling Psychology full time, and of course raising my kids full time too.  Not to mention, for a while there I was also working 15 hours a week at their school.  As you can probably imagine, making dinner was not a priority.  We ate out a lot.  WAY too much.

I know that stress and food play a huge part in the manifestation of cancer and all illness.  I have learned many more things about cancer since this journey began as well.  Am I holding onto guilt about it?  No.  I learned a long time ago to not have any regrets.  Everything happens for a reason.

When I was diagnosed on January 7, 2013, I looked at it as an opportunity.  I have had dips in attitude along the way, particularly when I was in a lot of pain post surgery, however, I stand by that initial sentiment.  Already, friends and friends-of-friends have taken on something healthier in their life because of my request on Facebook on January 27, 2013.

My point is, don’t ignore your health.

You have one body for your whole life.  Medicine has come a long way since the cave man days but it would be unwise and neglectful to depend on it as your plan A.

Plan A should always be to eat well and be well, in body and spirit.

What will you do to take better care of you?  Today is day one.