This post is inspired by my beautiful friend Sara. She is following her dreams, inspiring people daily, and it just so happens that she also lives with a disability. In her recent post on the Power of Imperfection for the Love Infinitely Project, she discusses how her imperfect body has taught her valuable lessons, specifically regarding imperfection.
“(Imperfection) is universal, shared, and normal, and it is by truly recognizing this, that the negativity we often associate with imperfection is dissolved, and it becomes devoid of its power to keep us small.” – Sara Notenboom
I love that! Universal, shared, and normal. Yet we constantly strive for perfection, judging ourselves for not ever getting there.
I have to admit that embracing imperfection is absolutely a work in progress for me. I have always struggled with self image issues and since my surgeries, this is no different. It becomes plainly obvious to me when I am in the change room after hot yoga and all I really want to do is shower and put dry clothes on. But what do I actually do? I find a bathroom to change in or I throw a hoodie on and wait until I get home.
I am embarrassed of my scar. Maybe embarrassed is not the right word. I am acutely aware of my scar. I don’t want people to see it. I don’t want anyone to stare. I don’t want people to feel sorry for me.
The thing is, I’m not sure that is the response I would get. When I was at Silverwood this year I saw a woman proudly walk by wearing a bikini. She had no hair and a huge scar the length of her abdomen. When I saw her I did not feel sorry for her at all. After all what was there to be sorry for? She was proud. She was happy. She looked beautiful and strong and healthy.
Our scars do not define us. Our attitudes do. Our actions do.
So I am working on it. My first step was to get changed the other day after hot yoga. There was no one in the change room at the time but we’re taking baby steps here! Sara’s post reminds me that I am who I am, and I am beautiful, strong, and healthy too!